Hide? Scream? Rant?
For me I tend to hide, rant, and then pray through.
Last night was such a night. I get so tired of gossip--and especially if it includes my family. My son in particular who is going to Iraq in less than a week (or leaving to start the journey--those who are in the Army will understand that to leave for your unit does not mean you are in Iraq in the next day or two--there is a process).
I was so angry at some of the people at the church who were spreading false rumors that I yelled at my husband. He wasn't guilty except of being there. So I blamed him for something that wasn't his fault. Of course, my agape loving husband said I'll do what you need me to do...grrrr....and....then kisses me goodbye this morning on his way to work.
Where would I be if I did not have someone in my life to remind me of Christ's love? My husband is such a wonderful example. Oh there are things that drive me crazy--his phlegmatic attitude--but he loves me always, no matter what and always lifts me up.
YOu know, I only remember one time he ever said something negative to me in an argument. He does not attack personally.
So here I am, wanting to hide and not go to church tonight--but then I'll have 88 kids there who go, "Where is Ms. Cheryl?" and what can my husband say except, she's mad and acting childish?!
Oh well, the child part they understand, the childish part they might not.
So, I have to swallow--several times--forcing the anger down, go to prayer and then I'll be ready to face and forgive those rumors.
I want to go on a fast. I'm hoping to find a place I can go for three days or so and fast and pray. I think that would help so much with the attitudes....alas, where can you go? To stay home means to fail and eat
But the bottom line is...what do you do when....you pray.....prayer is the solver of all problems.
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